I am perfectly aware that in the end there’s only one issue.
I need only to allow myself to love myself enough (whatever enough means).
Then, whether or not there is or isn’t somebody else who is or isn’t capable for whatever reason, by issue or by intention, of loving me “enough” either, then it won’t be so fucking heartbreaking each fucking time.
But if it were that easy, I’d have already done it. So now I’ll have to resolve, all over again, to try. Again. It’s kind of boring. And really back-breaking.