One of my favorite authors, Robin McKinley, writes of one of her characters in one of her books that she needed rest, because she gave too freely of herself– she needed time “putting back into her self.” While that particular character turns out to be not sympathetic in the end, McKinley’s discussion of how we drain ourselves and need recharging is strong.
I very much feel this way about myself– I invest a lot (often too much) of myself in my day, in my interactions. Maybe it’s the bipolar, maybe it’s just being too sensitive, or too critical, or fussy, or something, or maybe it’s just the need to monitor my own output a bit better– in any event, by the time lunch rolls around, I need a little alone time, some putting back into myself. A half hour with a book and some food usually does it, though I’m also trying to give myself a fifteen minute break for tea and a cookie mid-afternoon. I cherish this time alone, and get quite cranky and unproductive when I don’t have it.
But when I do? I can go back to giving (too) freely of myself. Happy LT, all. May you find all the quiet moments you need, today and hereafter. You can see other LT posts here.